What Are YOU Waiting For?

Just after setting the timer on my coffeepot and just before crawling into bed last night, I pulled the window to my back patio door wide open and breathed in a few deep gulps of the crisp night air.  It seemed so much cleaner and sweeter than normal, and as I took the time to simply breathe in that chilly, oxygen-rich air, I suddenly became overwhelmed with emotion.  Really, it hit me like a brick wall and, before I knew it, tears were streaming down my face.  Tears of gratitude, tears of love, and even tears of sadness as I felt keenly aware of the fragility of this life. 

It's funny how sometimes we have moments like that - moments where suddenly we feel so painfully aware of all the love and joy and even suffering of this world. 

I have these moments often lately - probably because I'm transitioning slowly from the person I once was to the person I am now, and as pieces of my prior self die, I feel a lovely jumbled mess of intertwining sadness and gratefulness.  Sadness only because it's impossible to erase the feelings I once felt, and gratefulness because all of the waiting, waiting, WAITING is over.  Mostly.  (Does it ever REALLY end?)

Via

I know that many of my new friends who read this blog are in a period of waiting, themselves, so I wanted to offer up a little encouragement to you...

All of my "adult" life up until this point I have felt like I was waiting and yearning for something.  In high school, I wanted desperately to be graduated and in college.  I stared at the clock through every class and simply could not wait to go home, or to work, or to be anywhere but there.  In college, I counted down the years and months and days til I received my degree and could be done with THAT scene, too.  It felt like the day would never come.  During my last year in college, I met my husband and, as we carried out a long distance relationship for a year, I counted down every day til I would see him again; and when we visited each other, I counted down the hours til we'd be apart. Then I waited for graduation. Then I waited for my last day of waiting tables. Then I waited for our wedding.  Then I waited for our renovation to be complete. 

And now I find myself in a new place.  No longer waiting.  Of course, there's always little things to count down to, but at this point, I seem to have finally escaped those places in my life where I simply did not want to be.  I'm finally where I belong, and it is such a perfectly peaceful and simultaneously terrifying place to find myself!  When all of that busyness and waiting subsides, you have a lot more time to think about what you want your life to mean.  And I realize that many, or even most people don't find themselves at this point as young as I have, but we are all on our individual journey and it doesn't matter what pace you travel, as long as you are moving. 

But anyway.  For all of you who are in similar periods of waiting as I was, I want to tell you this:

Sometimes, for a while, you have to live like most won't in order to have what most never will.  Few people are willing to sacrifice today for the person they will be tomorrow.  Later, you will thank your younger self for having the patience to wait. 

Sometimes, for a while, you'll feel lonely and afraid of what the future holds.  But never settle for second best because you're afraid you'll never find what you'd love most.  You WILL find it, but...

Be aware every moment of what you are beckoning into your life through your every thought and action.  The law of attraction is very, very real, and very, very simple. 

Read this book.  It's all about the Law of Attraction,

and it changed my life.

Don't compare your life to others'.  Just don't.  Learn from their mistakes, garner pieces of their wisdom, gain inspiration from their triumphs, but don't compare.  Just do the very best you can with what you have. 

And while you're waiting, don't forget to see the beauty that IS all around you. 

Via

Now go and have a lovely day!!! :)

J